Exclusive Sneak Peak:Nazareth Heights Book2:"Summer In The Heights" Part 1

Dark, angry clouds slowly swallowed the tottering plane. The airplane began to rock, and dip against the turbulent winds. Heavy rain drops violently slammed against the windows. Adrianna’s moist cold hand quivered, and slowly slid down gripping the sides of her seat. Her eyes clasped tight, and her mouth became dry and stuck together.

She attempted to pray, but was unable to articulate a coherent prayer. Adrianna noticed the flight attendants quickly fastening their seat belts, and nervously darting their eyes.Adrianna clinched her fist and desperately searched for words to pray. She could only whisper. “Jesus…Jesus.” The searing emotions of fear and uncertainty gripped Adrianna Williamson’s mind and soul. Her thoughts immediately flooded with the terror of never reuniting with her father.

She often heard stories from her grandmother of how her father once held and sang to her as an infant. However, her memory was vacant of his touch, his expressions, and his voice. Adrianna immediately felt anger and resentment. “What kind of man are you? How could you go this long without seeing me? I’ll be sixteen soon! And…I’m a good student…I even got accepted into Langford!”

The plane immediately dropped in the air, jolting Adrianna in her seat. She was beyond frightened. Adrianna’s anger toward her father suddenly transformed into an undying and unconditional love for a man that she longed to meet.

The turbulent landing into Hartsfield-Jackson Atlanta International Airport set the tenor for Adrianna’s first summer in Atlanta. It was the summer of complete change. The summer Adrianna had hoped to meet her estranged father. The man who abandoned her when she was eighteen months; the man she yearned to meet throughout her entire life. The man whom she still failed to meet despite her summer vacation with her father’s parents on Cascade Road.

Once again, Samuel Williamson shattered his daughter’s heart and hopes when he failed to show up at his parent’s home to reunite with the baby he left so long ago.
Cascade Road was in complete contrast to the chaotic street life of Nazareth Heights. Her grandparents’ neighborhood was serene and pleasant. Sprawling oak trees hung over the sidewalks and front porches, shading the residents from the relentless Atlanta sun.

Bundles of colorful flowers spilled over large clay pots, and sat in the front of each porch. The elderly residents of the neighborhood would spend their lazy, hazy afternoons sitting on their porches; talking and laughing, while observing the passing cars and pedestrians.

The neighbors were always polite and took the time to make eye contact; always saying hello, while giving wide toothy grins. The families that knew the Williamson family never failed to stop Adrianna and shout, “Adrianna is that you girl? I remember you when you were just a little bitty thing. Girl… if you don’t look just like your daddy! he must of spit you right out. Your mama didn’t have nothin to do with that!”

Adrianna thought it was comforting to be surrounded by people who knew her father; but during the course of the summer the comments about her appearance, became irritating and annoying, like a virus that would not go away. Adrianna learned to smile politely, but her thoughts contradicted the pleasant expression on her face: “Don’t they have anything better to say? Don’t they realize that I’ve never even met the man? What about asking me about my grades? or where I‘m from? I’m a straight A student! I’m more than my so called father!”

Upon Adrianna’s arrival in Atlanta she never failed to e-mail Lacey and Bree, eagerly detailing every aspect of her trip. After contacting her Faithful Four Sisters, Adrianna could not wait to send an email to Terrance Francis. Terrance failed to return any of her emails. To avoid feeling hurt by Terrance’s rejection she would tell herself that all of her e-mails were delivered to his spam file.

Throughout the month of August, Bree and Lacey stopped receiving emails from Adrianna. Adrianna Williamson had become completely silent. And no one knew why.


TO BE CONTINUED............Copyright © November (2009) Camille Kleidysz

Author's Chat with Stephanie Elzy author of “The Sweetness of a Bitter Cup: Journey of a Pastor’s Wife”

The daughter of Jonas and the late Delores Whitley, she is an Augusta native who is passionate about sharing the love of God.

If you’ve spent any time with her then you probably know that she is married to Roderick L. Elzy, Sr. and has two children- Whitley and Roderick, Jr. You may know that she graduated from the Medical College of Georgia in 1992 and has been a dental hygienist for 17 years. You might know that she helped serve the SDA church alongside her husband in pastoral ministries for nearly 10 years and is now a member of the Marietta Adventist Church in Marietta, Georgia.

However, there are a few things you may not know about her. She is the author of a book entitled “The Sweetness of A Bitter Cup,” which tells about the personal life crisis that transformed her life, and is the founder and director of Love. Life, and Living Ministries, an online ministry that seeks to help lead 21st Century women into personal relationships with Christ and to encourage and support their choice for Christian Living in an age where distractions are all around them.

She also hosts an online community forum called Former Pastors’ Wives, to help women who, for reasons of divorce, death, or vocational change, are no longer pastors’ wives anonymously connect with and support one another. She and her ministries have been highlighted in articles in Time Magazine (2007) and more recently in Called Magazine, (2009), a magazine created for female clergy.

She is presently pursuing a Masters of Divinity degree from Regent University with aspirations to one day earn a doctorate degree in Theological Anthropology. She recently completed a pastoral internship at the Marietta church and a Clinical Pastoral Education-Chaplaincy Internship at Children’s Healthcare of Atlanta- Scottish Rite in Atlanta, Georgia.

Her name is Stephanie Elzy. No stranger to trials and challenges she longs to share the hope of God’s sustaining hand. Her life’s mission is to live a life of love, service, and fellowship as she awaits the coming of her blessed Savior.




Camille Kleidysz: Welcome to Inspiration Today! I am honored and thrilled to have the opportunity to interview you. You are my friend and mentor and truly a woman of God; this is evident from your sweet, peaceful spirit. You are also a mother, wife, author, singer, counselor, and pastor. God has truly blessed you with many gifts and talents. The title of your book is “The Sweetness of a Bitter Cup: Journey of a Pastor’s Wife”, what an intriguing title. Stephanie…what inspired you to write this book?


Stephanie Elzy: A traumatic life experience that I’d just come through and what I learned in that experience inspired me to write this book. The book is based on a very personal experience during a very difficult time in my life. But it was during those times that I found something that changed my life forever. And, I believed so strongly in what I learned, that it was so powerful and liberating, that I just had to testify and share it with others.


Camille: Give us a brief synopsis of “The Sweetness of a Bitter Cup”?

Stephanie Elzy: The Sweetness of a Bitter Cup is a non-fiction book that recaps a part of my life-story during a difficult time as a pastor’s wife in order to share the message that you can have true happiness in the midst of your bitter situations. As a pastor’s wife that had lost just about everything she believed in and had made her what she was, including her identity, I share the secret that turned my life around, the one that can do the same for others too. The story is filled with themes of love, rejection, resentment, and restoration and shares how to use those things to find a happier you. In it readers will find excerpts from my personal journal that helps tell the story and then blank journal pages for them to write out their own thoughts as they read the book.

I chose the title “The Sweetness of a Bitter Cup,” because I wanted to testify of the truth that God can and will give beauty for ashes. I wanted to encourage others that are going through devastating times by showing them that often times their greatest blessing lies in their most trying times and that if they’ll just reach out for it instead of running away from it they can have the greatest joy and security they’ve ever known. In fact, I think the subtitle says it best: “Find Everything Your Heart Desires in the Very things it Doesn’t Want.” Often what you’re searching for can be found in situations you don’t want to be in. You just have to seek it out. This book not only tells you that you can find sweetness in bitter situations, but also gives you steps on how to do that. I pray others will find it to be a blessing in their lives.

Camille: A lot of people do not understand that being a pastor’s wife is a calling and a ministry within itself. It takes a special character to manage the different dynamics that take place within a church congregation. In your book do you give advice to only pastor’s wives? Or can your book apply to anyone who may be going through a personal storm?

Stephanie Elzy: This book can be applied to the life of ANYONE. I only tell the story from the point of view of a pastor’s wife because that was my point of view. In the writing of the book I debated as to whether or not I should add “Journey of a Pastor’s Wife,” to the title, but I chose to for two reasons. One, because I wanted other pastors’ wives (PWs) to know that they were not alone, that there was somebody else out there who understood not only the joys that come along with being a PW, but also the pain and frustration they often times experience. Often times books written for PWs are flowery and idealistic, which, understand me, there is nothing wrong with that. I appreciate that. We need those kinds of books. But, I wanted to publish a book from a PW’s point of view that was written in first person and would be candid so that those PWs who found themselves in my situation could really relate and not feel alone.

The second reason I added that phrase to the title was because I wanted to, in some way, express the fact that PWs are real people with real struggles and real pain. Often others look at PWs and say “oh what a perfect life they must have,” because of our roles, our spouses’ role, our outward appearance, and what we represent [- that being the life-giving gospel]. And thus, being a PW, in the eyes of some, becomes a “prestigious” position on which only rose petals and sugar plums fall, when really, when it comes down to living life and experiencing pain, we’re no different than anybody else. So I wanted to, in my own way normalize the “pastor’s wife” to others, because what happens in the book happens to women across the board, from all walks of life, not just to some in one category and not others of another category. Pain has no categorical boundaries.

This book is for anyone who has, is, or will experience heartache…no special position, title, or role required.


Camille: It is rare to read a book that is written from a pastor’s wife’s point of view. Stephanie, you should be commended on your willingness to become completely transparent in order to minister to others. As authors we have a responsibility to be authentic and transparent, but as Christian authors we also have a responsibility to ministry. As a Christian author do you find it difficult to balance authenticity with ministry?


Stephanie Elzy: That is a very good question. It is a good question because I think it is an issue that is quietly overlooked, but should be addressed. Yes, I have found it to be somewhat challenging to balance authenticity with ministry. Authenticity, being real, is right up my alley. It’s how I prefer to do ministry. We’re all sinners saved by God’s grace and I can learn from you as well as you can learn from me. But if we’re all “perfect,” that is, pretending to be “perfect,” because we’re definitely not, then how can we grow? Iron sharpeneth iron, so you can learn from what I go through so you don’t have to pass that way and vice versa. But if we all live as though we are perfect then we are left stagnate in a false glorification of ourselves that prohibits our growth into Christ-likeness.

However, the problem I’ve found with this is that when one takes a risk, becomes vulnerable in transparency, others, even within the body of Christ, point fingers, starts rumors, or even ostracize the one trying to be transparent, saying “ooh, I knew she was a sinner,” or “I knew he wasn’t any good.” And instead of praising God for His restorative power, they chalk him/her up as unworthy to be heard.

There’s also the struggle of, at least for me, how much to share and how candid to be? Because I do believe that there are some things that might be better off left within the confines of one’s inner circle of trusted family and friends. Sad, but true, there are some you can’t trust your deepest personal truths with. So wisdom is definitely needed. For me, in writing this book, I definitely struggled and had to pray about it because it is so transparent. I felt it needed to be in order to help others more fully grasp the power of God. But it was not only my vulnerability I was risking, it was mine and my family’s as well, and I had to be very careful about that. During the writing process we had conversations about this, especially with my husband, and they too had to find a place of comfort within themselves for me to be able to share our story. I commend them for that.

I can stay up on this soapbox forever, but I won’t. I’ll just say, yes, I believe that as ministers we have the responsibility of authenticity, yet we must be wise and prudent in the doing of it because we live in an imperfect world.



Camille: Thank you for sharing with us today, tell us where we can purchase “The Sweetness of a Bitter Cup"?



Stephanie Elzy: There are two ways you can purchase the book:
www.Amazon.com (and once you’ve read it, I’d love to hear your feedback, so leave your feedback there on my Amazon book page.)
Contact me via shellzy34@yahoo.com requesting a copy of the book and I’ll send an autographed copy at the price of $10.
My website is under construction and should be going up any day now. But in the meantime, if you contact me via email, I can get the book shipped out to you right away. And for anyone who allows me permission to contact him/her via email in return, I would love to send out an e-announcement once the site is launched.

And if I may say one other thing, presently I do host a social site for Former Pastor’s Wives. It’s a place of encouragement and fellowship for those who find themselves no longer a “pastor’s wife.” Whether it is due to the death of a pastoral spouse, divorce, or change of a pastoral spouse’s vocation, this site is for you. It can be found at http://lllministries.proboards.com/index.cgi?



Camille: Complete this sentence I am blessed because...

Stephanie Elzy: God loves me unconditionally, and because of that He has given me a wonderful family who loves and supports me, He continually provides my every need, and He’s always there, no matter what I’m going through. I am blessed because I’m God’s child.

Camille Kleidysz: Once again I would like to thank author Stephanie Elzy for this compelling interview. “The Sweetness of a Bitter Cup: A Journey of a Pastor’s Wife” Is a must read. It is an authentic and amazing account of the demonstration of our Heavenly Father’s amazing grace and love throughout one’s life’s journey.

Author's Chat with Author Gina Conroy

Gina Conroy is an ordinary mom, serving an extraordinary God. She is learning and growing in her faith, parenting, and writing (among other things) while she home schools two out of four high-spirited children. She is the founder of Writer...Interrupted , the Writer...Interrupted Community, and she blogs about her triumphs and failures at balancing life at Portrait of a Writer...Interrupted.


Camille Kleidysz:Welcome to Inspiration Today where are you from?

Gina Conroy: Thank you for having me. I grew up in New York, but moved to the Midwest for college, got married and stayed. It's hard to believe I've been here over 20 years now.

Camille: I have to tell you that I absolutely love the title of your book, “Anytime Prayers for Everyday Moms”. I truly believe in having a connection with our Heavenly Father throughout the entire day. But… how does a mother who has a plethora of responsibilities even attempt to stay prayerful throughout the day?


Gina Conroy: Thank you. I was glad to be a part of the project. I wish I had an easy answer. For me, long devotion times were never something that worked in my life. Even when I managed to get up really early in the morning (on those rare occasions) my mind could only focus so much before the day's responsibilities crept in to crowd my thoughts. But what does work for me is little snippets of prayer throughout the day. Before I'm even fully awake, I thank God for my family and life and whatever comes to my mind. Sometimes I read a short devotion, or write one. Then throughout the day I try to pray. It's nothing formal, and sometimes it's a prayer of desperation or gratitude to God, but it's still prayer. Many of them like the ones found in my book.


Camille: Why is prayer so essential to a mother’s life?


Gina Conroy: Prayer helps put my life and my mothering back in focus and helps me react in a positive way toward my children. When everything around me is spinning out of control and I feel myself "losing it," prayer helps me do and say the right thing to my children. I wish prayer was my first reaction to things, but that's not always the case. Thankfully, though as I get older and I'm more experienced in this mothering thing, I'm able to ask God for guidance throughout the day instead of relying on my own parenting skills or lack of parenting skills!


Camille: Are experiences in your book based on someone you know, or events in your own life?

Gina Conroy: "Anytime Prayers for Everyday Moms" was a work for hire project which means I was asked to write about thirty prayers in the book (pages 74-134.) The most amazing thing about the prayers I was given is that almost all of them were things I was already dealing with in my own parenting. The prayers were so easy to write because they came straight from the heart. God truly blessed me by giving me such an easy assignment and I think the prayers are able to touch others because they were so authentic in my own life.


Camille: What are your current projects?


Gina Conroy: Currently I'm working on my fiction career. I've finished two inspirational mysteries and my agent, who signed me last year, is shopping them around. I'm truly blessed to have someone who really believes in me and my writing and is working hard to get my stories published.


Camille: Is there anything you find particularly challenging in your writing?


Gina Conroy: Balancing life...Mothering, homeschooling, and this fall I'll be teaching two writing classes, is the hardest part of writing. It's taken me about five years to finally get to the place where I think my priorities are almost in order. It's not an easy task writing with kids, but I know it's possible. I started a group blog several years ago at http://writerinterrupted.com to try and figure out how so many writing moms are successful at writing and raising kids. I've learned so much over the years and it's been a great source of encouragement.



Camille: Do you have any advice for writers?

Gina Conroy: Find others writers who understand why you write. Encourage one another and never give up. Writing is a lonely profession. It's much more fun when journeyed with friends!


Camile: Thank you for sharing with us today, tell us where we can purchase “Anytime Prayers for Everyday Moms"?

Gina Conroy: You can buy my book on Amazon.
http://www.amazon.com/Anytime-Prayers-Everyday-Moms-Author/dp/0446579351/ref=sr_11_1/102-5715084-2210561)



Camille: Complete this sentence I am blessed because….

Gina Conroy: God's love for me is unconditional and even if I mess up as a mom, God can still grab a hold of my children's hearts and clean up the mess I made!



Camille: I would like to thank author Gina Conroy for sharing with us today. Mothers who desire to have a harmonious, Christian home should utilize "Anytime Prayers for Everyday Moms". The prayers featured in the book will encourage and give mother's a guideline on how to remain prayerful throughout the day.

Until the next Author's Chat...Peace and Blessings Camille Kleidysz

Spiritual Eyes: LIfe Odyssey Series Volume I

Spiritual Eyes: Life Odyssey Series Volume I is the first installment of inspirational novellas exploring the spiritual core of the human condition.


Throughout our lives journey we come in contact with different people. And based on the way they look or their actions, it becomes easy to pass judgments. At times, the assumptions we make about others can be justified based on they way they have treated people. However, there are people who are genuinely hurting and are desperately seeking internal peace. Behind all the ugliness one may portray; there is always a reason why a person finds themselves in an unfortunate life circumstance. Everyone has a story. And at the appointed time, there comes a moment when it is appropriate to cease the opportunity, to stop and listen to someone’s personal story. This is the dynamic that takes place between Kai and Roman; the main characters in Spiritual Eyes.


Spiritual Eyes is a captivating tale about an accomplished ballerina living in the bustling metropolis of New York City. Kai suddenly finds her self in the face of adversity when she has a life altering encounter with a man whom she despises on the happiest day of her life. Kai Valentine's chance meeting with Roman, an infamous neighborhood gangster, forces her to implement the Biblical principal of “love thy neighbor” and challenges her faith and perception of the frail human condition. Will Kai Valentine’s life ever be the same after her unexpected encounter with Roman?


Excerpt From Spiritual Eyes Volume I

The air was thick and chilly with a bitter wind that slapped against Kai’s face. She scurried down the subway stairs, thankful to finally escape the cutting gust of winds.
The thick crowds of the underground disappeared, leaving the subway station distinctly desolate. An awkward silence clung to her in the depths of the chilly underground.
Kai could only hear the vibrant rhythm of her heeled boots beating against the cold pavement.
She finally spotted a lone commuter standing at the end of the platform, wearing a black beret and a smooth, velvet pea coat. Kai rushed to stand next to the chic passenger, but her efforts to join the woman were quickly intercepted when the Uptown train soared into the station, thrusting an icy breeze against her cheeks.
Kai slowly boarded the train and immediately felt uncomfortable. She was surrounded by vacant seat and longed to hear the comforting buzz of conversation.
Kai gently leaned her head against the window and began nodding in and out of sleep until she reached the 125th Street station. A cluster of people pushed their way through the subway doors. Kai began to feel at ease and relieved to see a small crowd of people board the train.
She slowly closed her eyes once again, when suddenly, a turbulent noise forced her sluggish eyelids to pop open. Kai immediately straightened her back and directed her gaze towards the jolting sound.
A tall and compelling man violently thrust his arm through the doors, forcing the subway doors to suddenly snatch open.
His dark leather coat draped freely over his statuesque frame, and a brown leather hat shaded his piercing eyes.
He broke the unspoken rule of the city and proceeded to make eye contact with Kai.
She immediately felt violated and strange. Kai quickly turned her head towards the window and stared intensely into the glass.
Without looking into his eyes, she continued to feel the man’s penetrating glare; his essence felt familiar as if she once knew him.
The train finally rolled into the 145th Street station. When Kai finally emerged from the underground, fierce winds greeted her once again, stinging her cheeks and ears.
She continued to walk along the slushy sidewalk until she reached the corner of Amsterdam Street.
Kai began to hear the sound of heavy footsteps following her, and she immediately began to pray.

“Dear God, please…please protect me…place Your hedge around me…You have always walked with me in this big city continue to walk with me now.”

“Miss!” The man shouted with a husky tone. Kai Valentine hastened her pace and continued to walk without turning around. Her walk suddenly turned into a slow jog.
“Miss…please…wait, I’m not going to hurt you!” The man’s sluggish steps became rapid, and she could clearly hear him running directly behind her. Kai’s heart began leaping within her chest; she struggled to breathe. As she continued running down the sidewalk, the icy air felt as if it were choking her with each step. The man wearing the leather coat and hat finally reached Kai.
“Excuse me, miss…I’m sorry…I’m not trying to hurt you… I promise…but don’t you know Roman?” Kai’s steps became frozen, and her heart continued to beat frantically. She felt excited to hear the mention of Roman’s name, yet scared to admit that she knew of Roman. This man was a stranger to Kai, and she knew that if she revealed anything about Roman to the wrong person, her carelessness could lead to severe consequences. Kai remained silent.
“He wants you to have this.” The cryptic man shoved a thin, sealed envelope in Kai’s hand and immediately slipped away into the darkness.

Copyright © May (2009) Camille Kleidysz

Spiritual Eyes: Life Odyssey Series Available on Amazon July 2009!

The First Genocide of the 21st Century

Please join me in prayer to stop to the first genocide of the 21st century. The UN does not have an exact estimation on how many people have been slain; however, they estimate that 450,000 innocent lives have been slaughtered by the Arab Janjaweed- a Sudanese militia group, simply because their skin is dark. The Sudanese people are our brothers and sisters. Their bloodshed is no less than ours. Do not allow your prayer time to neglect our brothers and sisters in Darfur, Sudan.

Fear Not

Swine Flu, natural disasters, the economy, wars, and unemployment. Stop! I want to get off this turbulent ride called life. The never ending battle of our existence seems unbearable at times. And those of us who are seeking a higher power other than ourselves become perplexed and ask the question. "Where is God in all of this?"

There was another person in the Bible who asked the very same question we ask today. It was a man that God himself called a "man after his own heart" (Acts 13:22).
How could a person who God proclaimed a man after his own heart question God's presence in his life? Because David experienced various trials in his life like most of us undergo today.

During King David's rule over Israel He experienced battles against his kingdom, a dysfunctional family, adultery, murder, and rejection. And it was through the lonely moments of affliction when David began to question. God I love you. I serve you. Why are you allowing this to happen to me? Are you still listening and seeing the suffering that is taking place here on this earth? (Psalms 10:1-11).

This is why Psalms is my favorite book of the Bible. The Book of Psalms is the poetic display of the human condition. In life we experience peeks and valleys. When we encounter trials in our lives, and are unable to find glimmers of hope, we begin to question God.

Throughout Psalms David's poetic prayers to God openly express his love for God, his joy, disappointments, fears, and his deep emotional pain. But throughout his life's journey David knew that his protection and strength always came from his Heavenly King regardless of what was unfolding around him.

During these times of fear and uncertainty there are two passages in the book of Psalms that should become embedded in your spirit and soul. The following passages I am going to share with you are words of healing and encouragement to a troubled mind and soul. And when these passages are repeated they will give you hope, strength, and encouragement to persevere through your life's journey. The following scriptures apply to those who acknowledge God and call on His name.

Peace and Blessings
Camille Kleidysz


The 23rd Psalms
The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: For thou art with me;
Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;
Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.



Psalms 91
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say [1] to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”

3 For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his pinions,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.
5 You will not fear the terror of the night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in darkness,
nor the destruction that wastes at noonday.

7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only look with your eyes
and see the recompense of the wicked.

9 Because you have made the Lord your dwelling place—
the Most High, who is my refuge [2]—
10 no evil shall be allowed to befall you,
no plague come near your tent.

11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways.
12 On their hands they will bear you up,
lest you strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the adder;
the young lion and the serpent you will trample underfoot.

14 “Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him;
I will protect him, because he knows my name.
15 When he calls to me, I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will rescue him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”